I went through a hard-core atheist phase. In my 20s. I ran from organized religion and chafed at any mention of a higher power. This was it. Just the here and now. Looking back, I wouldn’t trade that liberation for anything. Throwing off all my childhood spiritual training meant tossing the baby AND the bathwater. It allowed me to start over to find my own sense of ultimate reality.
So I get it. And I appreciate your honesty. You don’t believe there’s anything out there that/who cares. You can’t imagine how a higher power could allow such domination, such violent inequality, to exist in our world. I feel you. In fact, I sometimes feel so estranged from “God” that I can’t give thanks or meditate on the healing of the world. That’s when I feel dull inside. There’s no such thing as Santa Claus. I relate to the void.
And yet . . .
Something like an invisible cord pulls me back to an awareness of presence . . . an indescribable sense of life force . . . a sense there’s more, a bigger picture just beyond my view. Then I’m awake, breathing again, in touch with my senses.
Having a Higher Power Means We’re All Going Somewhere Good
. . . and this is the main reason you need one.
Evolution Means God.
Evolution happens, whether we believe it or not. I see it in my clients, who learn and change: their faces look a little brighter, their energy more focused, with each new week. I see evolution in teenage boys, who deftly solve my bluetooth problems and show a generosity that will change the world. Evolution suggests presence. Presence suggests mind, learning, and growth. Good things are in the works. We are not standing still. We are moving forward. Toward higher consciousness and love.
Every morning, I write a letter to the Great Creative Force. I got this term from writer Julia Cameron, who says we don’t have to believe any particular thing, but we do need some sense of a presence that is larger or more encompassing than our own individual reality. Wise mind. Higher wisdom. Universal consciousness. However it makes sense to you.
Your higher power provides a listener for your thoughts and helps you trust them. It prompts the questions: Who am I? Where do I come from? Why am I here? If you answer, I don’t know, you may feel unsettled, untethered, in free-fall. I recommend experimenting: pretend you had a higher power. You can borrow mine if you want. Try it on for size. Speak to it. Imagine yourself in the presence of wisdom. Just pretend. See how it feels. Go from there.
Here’s what having a higher power does for me right now:
- Assures me the universe is moving toward higher consciousness, in spite of what looks like de-evolution.
- Gives me hope that today’s horrors are part of something larger that is ultimately good.
- Allows me to trust each person’s healing process and know it comes from a place of wisdom. We heal in spite of ourselves.
- Gives me patience for people who seem immature or willfully ignorant: even very mean or destructive people have good in them.
- Hints at how EVERYBODY evolves, so I can see myself, not as a big disappointment, but as a work-in-progress.
- Hears my disjointed morning ramblings; answers my questions; reassures me there’s a reason.
- Sends me dreams chock full of clues about who I am and what I need to keep growing.
- Calms and centers me. Reminds me, All is in Divine Order.